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he loves me. but he's gonna live with someone else.

mimpi=kenyataan

mimpi adalah mainan tidur.
yeahh!i totally agree.fullstop.
tapi, mimpi2 sy yg sebelum2 ni
seolah2 bagi petanda kt sy.
seolah2 nak tunjuk hint kt sy.
da real fact is..
i've 2 go through today.
i've 2 face it today.
betapa peritnya..
sorry encik..sy hanya mampu menyusun sepuluh.
menyusun sepuluh jari.
sebab sy x mampu jadi yg terbaik utk diri encik.
T_T

tsktsktsk

i need to cry-out-loud.
i need to forget you.
you, you, you, and you.

my list-to-do@rejected!

juz a simple update.

1. Not feeling well today. I had a high pressure.

2. My head is spinning around.

3. Worried about my exam, which i cant barely even face it.

4. Havent take a shower yet today. Its not dat bad.

5. Have been sleeping like da whole day.

6. I had roti butterscotch for my breakfast.

7. I have no tears 2 come out again bout him. useless!

8. Thinking if i ever did troubling anyone.

9. I need a mom's care. i luv u much much more.

Last thing is.

10. I still in love with my girlfriend. exactly upset i can't join her n 4sekawan at kbmall today. enjoy da scrumptious sizzling n chicken chop.*jeles*

keep it up!

im blogging again. a quick post.*btol ke?ahaha*
hmm, finals is so near.
is very near.
is quite near.
juz around da corner.
today, its 12th of april.
20th of april is my 1st paper.
same goes 2 my two beloved bfday..
my dad n my sista,anis.
im juz a panic button.as usual..
but many ocassions do irritate me.
n evrytim dat happens.

:p
owh, wrong smiley.
i should put diz 1..
:) smile ok, finaz!
hmm,da stress n tension is building up 4 evryone.
n as 4 me.its worst.
i've plans.
n i have to perform for finals.
n hopefully my plan goes well.
study smart..
praying hard.really hard
n lecturers,thank you for keeping some faith in me..

im wondered.

Okay,
I know I can be ignorant sometimes.
But trust me,
I'm not dat type of person who would treat people like dirt just for the sake of doing it.
I'm not da kind of person.
siyesly diulangi, I am NOT.

Kadang-kadang,
Im sick of being cautious around people,
nak jaga hati orang, perasaan orang,
when most of da time,
people don't give a damn about me, or how I feel.
What the effin hell?
Penat tau x? tersangat2 penat.
And Im sick of holding onto my anger,
keeping it bottled up inside,
juz bcoz ye laa, nanti takut orang terasa lak.
I dun ever give a damn about anything,
come hell or whatsoever, kalau dah marah.
Kalo ada pon sy marah orang, marah tu dah siap bertapis2 everything dah tu,
Tak penah lg orang yg kena marah btol2 dgn sy.
sy hanya dok diam jer.
pendam. dan pendam lagi.
sampai x blh tahan sangat, i give my calling 2 my mom n sista.
No, because it's my nature, nak jaga hati perasaan orang.
dats why orang suka sgt pijak kepala.
and i know myself better.
x sempat lagi nk marah orang, air mata laju je kuar.
huhh

special entry untuk pokjak.

jak..
aku bukan tanak maafkan mu.
i know..
u really2 regret wat u've done 2 me.
aku sangat2 sedih sebenarnye ngn statement mu.
mu kawan aku.
sejak tamhidi lagi.
even once we stepped in 1st year degree,
we r not too close as well.
mu da dapat ramai kawan baru.
aku x kesah mu nk kawan ngn sape2.
tapi..
aku sangat2 menghargai friendship kita.
i was really touched by ur words.
and sadness around me somehow!

and..
i juz got an offline message from hanan.
u told her, rite?
aku yang dipersalahkan..
aku yang jadi mangsa keadaan..
even mu xtau apa masalah yg berlaku sebenarnye..
gara-gara choral speaking last week.
betapa peritnya untuk membuat sesuatu keputusan.
if u were me..
IF U WERE ME, ok..
tapi, xpe lah..
once again..
aku bukan tanak maafkan mu..
aku bukan tanak reply ur messages..
tapi ada sebab aku wat cam 2.
n sorry 2 say..
kawan2 aku yg reply ur msg b4 diz..
i can't!!